Fingers and Hearts crossed.: September 2011

Friday, September 30, 2011

pwede ba yung ganun? malungkot ka, pero walang dahilan? :(

Thursday, September 29, 2011

There's this girl who was cryin the whole night at around 1am, 2 days before September ends. I don't know what the real story is, but I can feel she's deeply hurt.

She thought of having suicide because of the feeling of loneliness. I stared at her.
She looked at me, then she suddenly ran away.

By morning, I saw her smiling and talking to her friends. She waved at me.
I waved at her too, but her eyes tells me something.

Until one afternoon, I saw a group of people crowding at the left side area of our school beside the lobby, I saw her. She was lying on the floor... unconscious.

.....

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

You dont understand sometimes.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Play these songs every time you wanna be with me.

1. Out of my league

2. Just the way you are (acoustic)

3. Nothin on you (acoustic)

4. Angels brought me here

5. It might be you

6. Fuckin Perfect - Travis (acoustic)

7. Marry me - train (acoustic)

8. Baby Im Amazed by you - Tim Mcgraw (acoustic)

9. Stay - Bic Runga

10. Forever - Neyo

11. Forever Aint Enough - J Holiday

12. Youre Beautiful - James Blunt

13. She’s the one - Robbie Williams (acoustic)

14. Someone - The Rembrandts

Labels: Jadiipersonal, Jadiisongs

Omaigad.

Omaigad. May namimiss akong someone. :(
Hi someone. I miss you. Wala lang.

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Eto na ba, eto na talaga ang ayaw ko ba. Na aattached ako bigla. Arggh.

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Wake me up when September ends.

The title above doesnt have a connection with my post right now.

I just want you to know that this week is my busiest week ever. And I had nothing else to do but to work all day. work all day. work all day. Work = Study + Requirements

As of the moment in my checklist, I have 14 things to do:

Duty Requirements Week 13 ✔

SIMO Article

NCM Report ✔

Nutri Report ✔

History Report ✔

SBIP Application Form ✔

Taekwondo Uniform

LIYAB Application Form ✔

Duty Requirements Week 14 ✔

Scrapbook in History

~~Tray Presentation~~

Scrapbook in RS

Debut gift for Shane

Debut Dress on Oct 2.

Tapos alam mo yun, 5 pa lang nagagawa ko? Man, I still have 9 things to accomplish this week! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Hope I get to finish all of these this week, Lord.

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Monday, September 26, 2011

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Saturday, September 24, 2011

But I have too.

Omygad. I'm going to attend that installation in our church. I dont even know what kind of organization I'm going to attend. All I know is that I need to attend that organization so that I can go to places where in my Ninang will sponsor me with my expenses if ever we'll have a trip outside Zamboanga.

Omygad. This is a sin. I'm not even interested. But I have to obey them. :(
What's wrong with the world?

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

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Source: blushpink

Labels: 500 days of summer, Jadiiphotos

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Wala kang alam.

Wala kang alam sa nararamdaman ko. Kaya ganyan ka kung makakilos. Wala kang alam sa pinagdadaanan ko. Wala kang alam sa kung ano ang totoo.

Kasi hindi mo ko naiintindihan. Kasi wala eh, ganito lang tayo eh. Ayoko na rin kasi mapalapit sayo kasi alam mo yun, walang wala ka na sakin. Pero wala ka pa ring alam na gusto kita, at oo, nasasaktan ako kasi hindi ko matanggap ang nangyayari ngayon.

Wala kang alam sa likod ng mga tawa ko, wala kang alam sa kung ano ang sinasabi ng puso ko. Wala kang alam sa lahat ng gustong sabihin ng utak ko. Kaya ganyan ka makasalita. Akala mo walang nasasaktan?

Wala ka kasing alam.

Labels: Jadiipersonal

You made me insecure. Told me I wasnt good enough. But who are you to judge, when you're a diamond in the rough.

Please, Jade.

Huwag na patulan ha. Please. Huwag na. Lalaki lang ang gulo. Please. Pasensyahan mo na. Pasensyahan mo na. Hayaan mo na siya. Total, hindi niya naman alam kung gaano ka niya nasaktan ngayon eh. Hindi niya naman alam. Hindi niya alam. Wala siyang alam. :'((

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Honestly.

Akala ko masaya sa klase namin. Oo, dati, mahal na mahal ko ang classmates ko. Pero ngayon it turned out to be going worse. Nakakaiyak. :(

Oo nakakaiyak, sobra. Where art thou BSN2 Sec E?! :((

Gusto ko ng umalis. Full of hatred. Pessimisim is winning over me. Why. :'(

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OMG. T_T

Okay. I presented to the whole batch the SIMO thinggy for them to be informed. I was the one who reached out. Tapos there's this guy who's running thru my veins right now. I dont know why.

Ayoko na rin siyang patulan kasi alam mo yun, ang arte2 niya. Oo, I respect his opinion. Kaya I answered him back. Then the discussion turned into something "nakakainis" na. Heeesh. The guy used to be one of the special. Yes, he used to be. but nowww...

I feel like crying. That bullshit. I hate him.
__

There's so much hatred in my heart. What's wrong?!

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Random Fact: When I was still a little girl, I've always dreamt of Autumn and Fall.

I dont know. May meaning kaya? Thats why I wanted to go to other countries to experience the 4 seasons, there.

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other.. maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.”

—	500 Days of Summer

Labels: 500 days of summer, Jadiipersonal

Cinemagraphs.

Jamie Beck Works. I always love cinemagraphs. Very modern, very enthusiastic. It gives life. It gives meaning. :)

Labels: cinemagraphs, Jadiipersonal

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Si Ahya.

Sa lahat ng tao, ang ahya ko lang ang nagpasaya sakin ngayon. Hi, Ahya. Thank you so much. :'(

Oo, sinabi ko sa kanya ang buong feelings ko. At kahit na negative ako, siya yung nag popositive ng feelings ko. Ibinalik niya sakin lahat ang mga ginawa ko sa kanya dati. Sana kasama ko nalang Ahya ko. Kaso, dun siya sa Manila eh.

Kapatid talaga ang turing ko sa kanya, kaso sometimes ko lang siya nakakausap. Like mga thrice in a month, just like that. Kasi sometimes, need ko ng space para mamaintain namin ang brotherhood namin. lolwhut

Then just a few minutes ago, after our chat in facebook habang umiiyak ako.
He called.

Him: Shobe (with a sad voice)
Him: Naman oh, shobe. Walang ganyanan.
Me: Oh.
Him: Shobe :(
Me: Okay na ako, ahya
Him: Hindi ka naman okay eh. Alam ko, alam ko hindi ka okay.
Me: Okay na talaga ako
Him: Ikaw naman kasi eh. Wag ka na malungkot oh. Alam ko hindi ka okay, kaya nga andito ako oh. Di ka iiwan ng ahya mo. Ikaw talaga, hindi ibig sabihin na galit ako sayo, hindi na kita love. Shope pa rin kita, kaya love kita.
Me: Okay na ako. Haha, pinapatawa mo naman ako eh.
Him: Sure ka ah? :(
Me: Oo, okay na ako. Gnyt na.
Him: Sige ha. Shobe ha. :(
Me: Oo sige. Gnyt!
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Pagkatapos nun, gaan na ng feeling ko. Magic.

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Ilang araw na lang, wala ka nang makikitang Princess Jade Monce na mag eexist sa mundong to pag nagpatuloy pa ang lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay kong ito, ngayon.

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Pagod na rin ako

Pagod ka na bang makinig sakin? Nagsasawa ka na ba? Hindi mo siguro inaakala na ganito kalungkot ang buhay ko no? Syempre nga kasi, ayokong ipakita ang tunay kong sarili pag nasa labas na ako ng kwartong to. Oo, nakikita mo kong tumatawa sa mga harapan niyo. Pinapatawa ko kayo, pero kahit kailan hindi niyo maiisip kung gaano kalungkot ang puso ko dito. :'(

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Gusto ko lang naman na mag alala sila sakin eh. Yun bang totoong pag aalala. Yung idadaan naman sa malambing na salita. Kasi alam mo yun, yun yung hinahanap ko. Lagi na lang kasi ako. Ako na lang kasi lagi ang naglalambing. Sa totoo lang, gusto ko ako rin, makaranas rin ng paglalambing. Hindi yung ako lang ang namimigay ng lambing. Unfair naman kasi yun eh. T_T Unfair.

Hindi yung dinadaan ako sa galit. Kasi nag cacare kayo? Galit? Taas ng boses? Minsan nga gusto ko kayong ipaattend ng seminar sa Parenting eh, para alam niyo kung paano pakitunguhan ang nagiisang anak na meron kayo. Oo nga, nag aalala nga kayo, pero pinapamukha niyo naman na ako ang may kasalanan. ako ang magsisisi. Anak naman ng tokwa oo, ganun ba yun dapat para matuto?

bakit? Anong tingin niyo sakin? di marunong matuto? Tangina naman eh. tangina. tangina. ang sakit sakit na. T_T

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Did you know that ...

We pretend we do not like the guy because we wanna test them if they would make an effort.
We pretend we’re not hurting because we do not want to look weak.
We pretend to smile even if it’s already tearing us apart.
We pretend we are happy for our exes when we really curse their new girlfriends to death.
We pretend we like a guy when we really don’t because we just want to make another guy jealous.
We pretend we are sad when we just need a hug, in fact.
We pretend to have a high self-esteem when we truly have a lot of insecurities.
We pretend to be strong in the eyes of others when we are really weak.
We pretend to enjoy being single when we get envy every time we see sweet couples.
We pretend to hate guys and say they’re all the same kind when we really want one to love us like the guys in the movies.

Those are things you guys do not know about us. When you see us laugh, you think we’re happy but we’re not. Look through our eyes, and you’ll know. So please be a little sensitive because girls are vulnerable. Do not believe if we say we do not need a guy because every single girl you see each day wants someone, a guy, specifically, to love them truthfully. You just gotta prove you could give that. We do not need sweet nothings. We need a proof through actions.

Labels: Jadiipersonal

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Feeling ko.

Feeling ko ang sama sama ko. Jinajudge ko kasi ang ugali ko based sa mga nasulat ko sa blog ko. Tapos feeling ko, napaka self-centered ko. Hindi ko alam kung sakit ba talaga to ng mga Only child. Pero, honestly I'm trying not to be. For 17 years, hindi ko pa rin masyadong kilala ang sarili ko.

Labels: Jadiipersonal

"Imy Jade :-)"

Letsugas teh. Kung namimiss mo talaga ako, bat di mo kayang itext sakin ang totoong meaning ng IMY?
Wala lang. Totoo man talaga! Oo, nag eexpect ako. Lalake siya eh. Talagang effort counts. Effort counts.

Labels: Jadiipersonal, RM

Friday, September 2, 2011

I will never forget what you told me.

For almost 10 years, the line that struck me most was the, "Nak, hindi muna tayo mag blow out ng birthday party mo ha, antayin na natin ang debut mo." I lived with that line for 10 years. I hoped that it would came true. I even collect lovely dresses in the net for me to choose whenever my debut will get near.

And then now, I'm already 17... they'll tell me that hindi na lang ako mag debut?
WHAT THE PAK IS DAT?!

Again, umiyak na naman ako sa harapan ng kainan.
What man, Dad. Although you and mom were just laughing the hell out of me.
Aklsjlhflshflshglshgldshgslghlshsdjfhsj. It hurts.

Labels: Jadiipersonal